Silene Viscaria Darcy/Grey Cooper
Montreal, Quebec, Canada
ISSUE 3 - QUEER LOVE
"How am I pretty?"
How are you not?
A list feels hardly kind, nor overly sensical, so here
Here are moments
Moments I have littered through my memories, and I now reach for them only to find
there are too many, a child under the burning sun, surrounded by beautiful sea shells
who cannot hold them all
But there's going to be too many regardless, so, here;
Here are my paperclippings of you
Moments when you reach and snag a little of the life of the sun for your own, gossamer thread of glowing light down to earth, brilliance, a sunbeam, a smile and a person
Moments like when you're asleep on my pillow at 2 am and your hair's a cloud and you
finger's moving tiny fractions in your sleep,
moments when the world seems to pause for you, because you're the loveliest thing in this city right then, with streetlight haze and yellow glow in the window above, and quiet warmth down here, safe and quiet, away from the flows of time
Moments like when you pause and look back, and your expression shifts, crisp lines around your smile melting to something softer, quiet shade-summer-warmth to
whomever you're talking to, a sun warmed breeze and convection pattern in a column,
in a person
you're dancing and alive, so alive that the room feels electric for a second, beaming and songbeats melded to skin and past bones, to homes and pasts, and a heart copper-gold and true, blazing though a night etched in silver ice
There is a whisper in the sky of stars we cannot know and never see, but you're light
and glowing and maybe we're whole right now and maybe we don't always have to
yearn for stars
Maybe one made human is enough
You're beautiful in all the stop-gap moments in all your honey-warmth and sea salt tides
in a deep bell toll heartbeat like a song
You're beautiful in the way of currents and tides and song rhythms
overflow and undertow and all the lines that don't match